After 21 years of my life journey.. I get muddled up feelings as to where my life is going to take me now. I think I have seen enough, to be judgemental. All these years of spoon feeding and pampering has made me completely slipshod of the reality. I am absolutely not ready to face the next stage of my life. “You are no longer a student. You are now an individual who is going to face this vindictive world with blokes whose ‘appearances are deceptive’. You are completely not aware that there are only handful of people, who actually care for you from their heart. The human race is filled with populace who externally pose as though they are being nice to you.. But you finally trace out their intentions, and that’s what they are. Your subconscious mind NEVER lies to you. It is your God. Be true to your subconscious, you will be true to yourself and to God.” Says one voice inside my head..
“Hey.. Dudette what the heck! It’s YOUR life.. Your rules.. Who the hell has to nose around in your stuff??? Just enjoy your life.. Go bindaas over every issue that you have. Your future? Duhhh.. Who cares.. Let time pass by and everything will align itself, how it was meant to be..You’ll have someone or the other to keep on coddling you , and you can strut around the world, with your earnings.” Says another voice inside my head..
Heart.., where are you?? Why the bloody hell are you letting my mind conquer you. Please talk to me.. “You are confused. You think praying to God gives you success, but sadly God's answers to your prayers come along with an expiry date according to you. When your pleas are not answered, it does not mean that God has left you, or Him answering to your prayers, has been impeded. I am agreeing with your mind, to the fact that you should be true to your conscience. But.. “VISUALISE” the success instead of “WISHING” it to happen. Don’t try too hard.. Because when u fail, you might lose hope. You cannot let that happen. Imagine yourself to be the luckiest person on earth, do your best and leave the rest to the divinity. If not this attempt, God will give you what you deserve. Follow me.. Everywhere I go, I your heart will always be with you.”
Some people might find this interesting to relate it to their lives.. I follow my heart. Seek answers to my questions from it. Usually the adolescent age of every person is called the so called crucial period. But adding to that, even this stage is a bit difficult to handle.. Isn’t it? Your future, your prospects lie blank in front of you. You see it as an indistinct filthy debris with people.. Places..or something huge and palatial..
Whatever it is, it’s high time I decide what I am actually going to make out of my future. I cannot keep on brooding over the past. I just have to live my present with my loved ones happily, and work towards my future, which has two more alleyways again.. 1. Music 2.Career ‘n’ money.. Or both?? I guess I am going all barmy and insane with my life. Heart, I hope you take me in the right direction.. I am holding you tight. Please don’t be your fragile self once again. I know you are changing..
